Amazed

Status: 35 weeks pregnant

Each and every day I feel so amazed.

Amazed that I am carrying this life inside of me. Amazed that I have made it this far. Amazed to feel her hiccups. Amazed that after coming so far I am simply in this moment.

I am amazed to me on my maternity leave. My originally last day of work was going to be the 2nd of December, but I have been feeling such an uncontrollable urge to nest and I am tired at the end of the day and driving and just being at work is exhausting, so I asked my midwifes for a note and November 17th was my last day of work.

So far I am enjoying my maternity leave. I am getting to the laundry. (Long story, but I inherited bags of used clothing from family, so now I am washing and sorting it). I am cooking meals for my freezer. Plus just taking time to nap and get caught up on my blog. I am loving it!!

Part of me is so amazed to be on my maternity leave. When I was trying to get pregnant, I would always think, okay this is my last winter driving to work, or this time next year I will be on my mat leave, it was something I always looked forward to and now it is here and I am amazed.

Another experience I have looked forward to for a long time is taking maternity photos. I would see my friends photos and think that they looked so beautiful and look forward to getting my own done some day. Luckily for me my sister is a photographer (http://web.me.com/stonemanphotography/Stoneman_Photography/Home.html).

Here is a sneak peak:

My name is Emily. This is my journey in motherhood and I am amazed.

Birthing Goddess

Birthing Goddess and her Partner

Created November 11, 2011

Grounded and centered

Connected to Mother Earth

Squatting low

Letting gravity, letting the Universe work with her

Uterus opening

Peeling back

Blossoming

Expanding to new life

Spine strong

Centered

Supported

Belly

Glowing with love and life

Expanding

Changing

Making room for new life

Heart beating for two

What love!

Love without beginning or end

Love that transforms and endures

Lave that withstands storms and heartaches

Love that grows

Life source

She is a source of life!

And for a time, it is enough

She lets go

Really deep down

Lets go

And embraces the unknown of Mothering

She is content simply nursing and caring

For all things there is a season

This is her season for supporting life

So lets go and simplifies

Her arms are open and flexible

Adaptable to the changes of

      Pregnancy

              Birth

                    Parenting

Able to reach heaven

And to hold her baby

And to hang on to her husband

Head

Not thinking with logic

       or timetables

           or expectations

Thinking through her heart

Hair specked with gray

Wisdom

Hers and the woman supporting her

The woman she is connected to through generations

She is woman

She is pregnancy

   Birth

      Mothering

She is brave, yet supported

She is strong, yet open

She is grounded, yet reaching

She is.



Open That Box

We are slowly getting ready for baby. I am trying just to take it one step at a time and not get overwhelmed by all the things to buy and get ready. I keep reminding myself that the best thing I can offer my little one is a healthy, happy relaxed momma and a strong marital relationship. So I am slowly getting ready and taking it one day at a time. I have been in total nesting mode and have a new found passion for cleaning and organizing and throwing things out.

A few weekends ago we got this stroller:

It's called a city select stroller. Its neat because you can use it in so many ways. We can attach our car seat to it, use it as a single stroller or add a second seat to make it a double stroller. We are being optimistic that there will be more children in this family, so we are making space for them now.

This weekend we got our carseat. It’s been sitting in the office and tonight I got the itch to open it up. I mean, what if the baby comes early and we need to use it soon? DH came up and we were about to open the box and I had a moment of panic. I mean, what if something happens? Should we really open the box? If it’s in the box we could resell it if something happens and the baby doesn’t come. DH reminded me that we need to move forward with hope, can’t always believe the worst is going to happen. So we opened that box!! And we read the instruction manual and tested everything out on Jammy Pie. Now when baby comes, we know how to use the careseat.



My name is Emily and this is my journey in motherhood.