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A blog about miscarrriage, infertility, pregnancy, birth and mothering. My name is Emily and this is the story of my journey in motherhood.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Change of perspective

Pre-baby I would see mothers worried about getting there kids home at a certain time or wanting to leave an event to put thier kids down for a nap and I would think "relax. It's not that big of a deal. How the tables have turned. Now I am the mom telling my husband that it's time to go so that Missy can get to bed. Everyone, including dh, can't see what the big deal is, but they aren't the ones pacing the hallways at 4 in the morning. I really had to stand up for myself and leave a get together today so I could bring Missy home and have her regular routine. I felt a little type a personality about it but I really didn't want my little one to get over tired or over stimulated, for her sake and mine. Did I know that would happen? No. But I didn't feel like taking the risk today. The whole experience helped me realize a few things: 1) Stop judging people! I have been learning this a lot lately. Things I thought I would never do. I am doing. 2) Trust my gut. I am a good momma. I know what I am doing. Trust, hnour and respect myself. I am doing the best I know how to do. I don't need to be perfect. Right now I am exactly the right mother for Missy. I am enough. My name is Emily. I left early to put my daughter to bed. I am a wonderful mother.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

One handed iPod blogging

I am blogging with one hand on my iPod because my little one is cuddled up with me in bed and if I move she will wake up.

Maybe I am starting some bad habits, but I co-nap a lot, okay almost always these days, and the past two nights we have coslept. She just seems so much happier when she is cuddled up with me. Right now she keeps fluttering her eyes open, smiling and then drifting back to sleep. When she slept in her own bed she would randemmley cry out during the night. I would have to rub her tummy to get her back to sleep. When she slept in our bed she seemed to sleep better and I did too. Cuddled between the two people I love. Feeling safe and warm. Does it get much better?

Will I co-sleep again tonight? Well see.

My name is Emily and this is my journey in motherhood that I am recording with one hand on my iPod.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Starting My Stash

My adventures in cloth diapering.

Why I cloth diaper:
  1. It’s better for the environment.
  2.  It saves money
  3. The diapers are so soft and comfy.

I started with a cloth diaper service. I would leave my diapers outside in a bag once a week and clean diapers would get dropped of. Super easy.

But to save money I wanted to do my own.

So I started experimenting with a few different types of diapers.

Motherease fitted, sized, bamboo (Sandy Diaper)
Pros: Super soft and absorbent, good fit
Cons: Need to buy multiple sizes

Motherease fitted one-size, organic cotton
Pros: Only need to buy one size of diapers
Cons: Bulky

Omaiki Sleep, one size
Pros: Soft and super absorbent, just need one size
Cons: Haven’t found any yet

Bummies Wetbag (travel sized)
AppleChecks Pail Bag

 Bamboo/Hemp Liners
Pros: Add to a diaper for night time. No night time changing needed.
Cons: Cant think of any

I haven't tried this one yet. But it sure saves a lot of money. A package of 10 disposable swim diapers cost me $15. This reusable swim diaper cost $15. Pretty good deal if you ask me.

I liked the Motherease fitted diaper (Sandy diaper). It wasn't as bulky as the one size fits all type and the fabric was super soft and absorbent. Plus when I went to the store they had a bunch on consignment, still in great condition and only $10!! So now I am prepping them all (I have to wash and dry them three times to get the fabric ready). So I should be ready to roll tomorrow.

My name is Emily and this is my journey in cloth diapering.